First Cuddling...

came when she was 13 days old and how sweet it was. It was so hard leaving the hospital without a baby. It was hard not being able to hold her. So when my mom and I went in on December 8th and they asked me if I wanted to hold her it was the most amazing thing. Up until now she was on a special vent called an oscilator, which was way more easier on fragile preemie lungs then a traditional vent. Although it was possible to hold her while on the oscilator, it was difficult and she was still so fragile. But once she was on the regular vent it was easier to move her. It seemed to take forever to just get her ready. You have to unhook this, move that, tape this down. Bundle her in warmed blankets because she couldn't maintain her body temperature on her own and we were taking her off the warming table. Then when they moved her they had to take her off the life support for a few seconds.


I didn't get to hold her for very long but it was oh so worth it!